Think back to when you were a young teenager and the friendships you had developed. Who you spent most of your free time together. What you did with each other and what you can still remember years later that still makes you smile. Those are usually the years you wish you could revisit, to feel that way again.
Riding on a roller coaster and screaming your fool head off? How about the lazy days at the beach looking at cute guys/girls you can only dream about? How about "TP"ing a friends house and getting caught because they were tipped off you were coming and got you with a lawn hose? Or those crazy scavenger hunts you go on to pass some time?
I remember around the age of 14 finally being able to bike ride to my friends house from church who lived two towns away. It would take me almost an hour to bike to her house and I did it all the time, without even batting an eye (to do that today would prob give me a coronary). Everyday we did have school we would get together it didn't matter if it was raining or sunny, we did it. People at our church used to call us twins connected at the hip, because when you saw one the other wasn't far behind.
In addition to being together as much as we could living in separate towns, we experienced a lot of "firsts" together. Not all of those were good ones but still we shared these things together. Think about a few of your childhood friends and what you did with them. You shared joys and dreams, fears and worries, Some may have even continued into your adult life. I know my best friend and I got married the same year. We were pregnant three times together (and no these things were not planned, they just happened).
Now if you take those memories and choose just one of your friends and erase all the memories associated with that friend. Doing so may sadden you but that is ok because everyone has had more then one friend and other memories to think on, right? What if you took another friend off your list and your memories? How many more memories does that take away? How many more friends did you have? 2, 4, 6 more that you can think about to fill your memories?
What if you erased all of your childhood friends and the memories that go with them? What would you have left then? Your school days with no one to talk to or maybe that are filled with people giving you strange looks? Maybe it leaves the hard days trying to figure out why no one will hang with you anymore?
It leaves days filled with playing things over and over in your head because you have no one to unload the horrible day you had.
What do you think this would do to a person? What would it do to a teenager? How about a teen transitioning into High School? Lets add a MI teen entering High School? Now lets add one more tidbit of info here............try a teen in their last weeks of Middle School who has just been told by her best friends that they can't be her friends because she is having problems with her MI?
Life is not always fair for many teens, it is a tough time with hormones and emotions. Life for a MI teen is even harder. It is no wonder to me why so many MI people commit suicide when these things happen. I have a hard time dealing with my own emotions when things like this happen. I understand and do not blame those who react like this because I know the reason people act this way is because of ignorance toward MI.
In the same sense it breaks my heart to see a child hurt like this. The fake smile they put on their faces while they say "Its ok, I don't need them anyway." or "well that is a load off my back". The mask that hides the deep down hurt inside them to those around but that can not truly hide from a parent. The pain that shows on their face when they think no one is looking.
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